the day without u-day 4

19 sept 2008-Finally i could sleep well bcs i had received a msg from dear dear yesterday.

In the early morning i was waken up by my housemate bcs she wanted me to help her to print out the resume.After that i continue my "dream land" until 11.30am.haha....

I have referral class at night so i went to college more earlier and studied at the library.Unfortunately my class was cancelled bcs the lecture was sick n replaced by da stupid lecturer who was also had something to settle so our class was postponed until next monday.Shit...it was wasting my time to wait for him at there.

Ehhh..i met an Indian girl at that class n she is quite friendly.We talked a lot while waiting for da stupid lecturer who came late n still had to cancel our class.

Bao bei...there was nothing much happened for today.hehe...muaxx
Bi bi ...i m wondering what u doing over there.hehe...

the day without u-day 3

18 sept 2008-bao bei i still can't adapt the day without u.I need to spent sometimes to adapt it.:( I was always wondering that how was ur day over Uk.What are u doing now?Have u missed me?Can u adapt the weather over thr?Have u settled down everything?Sigh i have to wait for some days to wait for ur call.It is really torturing me.

Anyway,dear dear no worries bao bei over here bcs bao bei will take care of herself until the day u come back n take the responsibility to take care of her.lolzz...:P Muackksss...Dear dear must take care of himself also.No matter where u r,bao bei is always here to wait for u and bao bei will support u always.I love u.

the day without u-day 2

17 sept 2008-It was the second day u r not with me.I really miss u so much.I couldn't sleep well.I kept on thinking about u.I couldn't even concentrate on my studies.Oh my godness i have to suffer in this kind of life for 9 more months.Sigh...
I couldn't control myself not to call u bcs i really miss ur noisy voice.i miss to talk with u like everynight we did.
Everynight i sit in front of the computer bcs i scared that i miss the chance to chat with u in msn.how silly i m...

the day without u-day 1

16 sept 200-finally u left to UK.15 sept was the last day u came to my house
and i was so sad.I was still remembered that when we were on the way back from 1-u shopping centre i was crying on your car.Bao bei i was really reluctant to let u go but i have no choice.Initially i thought that i can handle it and i m so persistence but i was wrong.In reality i m a weaker.I tried not to cry in front of u but i failed to do it,i can't control how i was feeling at that time.

Bi..i really miss u so much.

new life,new hair style

Last week,i finally decided to cut short my long hair.
haha...b4 i was going thr i had such a complicated feeling.i was a bit worried that what if it was too ugly?But at the same time i was so excited and can't wait to go there anymore.
Around 10am i went to seek for a few nice saloons which were near my house.Unfornately i went thr too early n most of the hair saloons still haven't opened the shop so i had to wait for the saloon at the nearest food stall.
Yeah...at 11am 1 of the saloon called I-B saloon was opened n i was the first customer for them today.lolzz...The stylist asked me" what type of hair did u wan"t?ermmm.."i want to try bob hair style."The stylist was quite shocked that y should i cut short my hair n asked "R u sure"?haha,i told him that "I m bored with long hair".
The stylist was really so handsome..lolzz.Somemore he was a nice person to chat.
Haha..i thought that hair stylist would feel that i was a crazy dude bcs i kept on laughing while he was cutting my hair.He always asked me "Y were u laughing"?hehe....bcs i was worried and happy that i tried a new hair style.I felt that short hair is nice n more younger.lolzz Somemore i save a lot of time to manage that such a messy long hair.
Yo..Yo...Yo...finally my new short bob hair cut was borned.hehe,i was so glad bcs it was pretty and suitable for me.
I was getting more confidence bcs my brother also said that it was nice and even look alike his leng lui classmate.ahaha...Furthermore my dear dear also said that i am pretty.lolzz...Luckily he is acceptable with my this short hair cut.:P
Yeah yeah..new life,new hair style...i will change to be better.The era of long hair was gone and whatever is now onwards i have to do my best for the coming challenges.I won't be a LOSER.

Help or not help?

I am so frustrated.Help or not help?I really don't know what should i do.Help you i will get into trouble but if i don't help you you are going to do something which is not right and you will get into trouble too.Have u ever thought of the seriousness of the consequences?NOPE...U don't.This is what i hate the most.Whatever u think is so naive n easy.U are not even know that it is very complicated and dangerous in this world.

I really don't know how to tell u the reasons and i also don't know how to reject u.i really decided to help u but i scared that i might get into trouble.My future and your future will be spoilt by your stubborn and uncontrollable action.If i tell u the truth then u will laugh at me and ask me don't think too much of non-sense stuff.I know i think too much but we should consider all the consequences.Please don't think that it is so simple.Anything will happen without any signal.It is unpredictable.k...

GOD,Please tell me which choice should i choose?Help or not help?I really have no idea and i scared that i will choose the wrong choice.PLEASE DON'T FORCE ME TO DO SOMETHING THAT I DON'T LIKE TO DO!!!!!U should take responsible for all the faults that u had done.I really pressure with it and it really drives me crazy.

想

2/8/2008-今天，我好不开心，因为我又和宝贝吵架了。

人终是要想东西。可是想太多也未必是一件好事，因为会伤害到他人。宝贝，我不是有心要令你难过。我只想告诉你我的感受，可是我没想到却伤害了你。真的很对不起。我知道我不该那么自私，因为你也有你自己的朋友，自己的生活，自己的自由，我是无权去干涉。

一个人的时候，我真的很寂寞。我真的很想有你在我的身边陪伴着我。我真的很痛恨寂寞的感觉。我也不知为何我会变成这样子。可能是我已习惯有你的存在。每当我想起你快要去英国时，我真的好害怕。我好害怕自己一个人的生活，我真的无法克制自己不去想。

Genting trip

18 June 2008- This was the first time me n my dear went to genting together.I was so happy bcs finally i have a golden opportunity to spent my time with him since such a long time i had been torturing myself in "prison" for almost 3 months in order to prepare for the "3rd yr world war"(exam).

On that day,the sun still haven't arisen i had already waken up bcs i couldn't wait for it anymore.lolzzz Around 9am we were taking ktm to Kl sentral.

On the way up to Genting by cable car,it was raining therefore the whole hill was covered up by the mists.We look like floating on the cloud.hehe.....It was so unfortunate since it was raining and we have to cancel our plan to go n play outdoor theme park games.But our mood did not get rid by it.mmmmm....we still have another plan.Haha,we started to explore our next "journey"-shopping.We crabbed every chance to take photo with a beautiful scenery while shopping.

I was so joyful bcs i had the opportunity to experience the winter time at snow world.

We had enjoyed with the temperature at minus 5 degrees Celcius.Damn cold man!!!

Dear,even we are unable to travel around other country together but i can have a wonderful time with u here.I am really glad.

wooo....that is an igloo.I am an Eskimo and all the penguins in front of me are my good friends.hehe

Dear,i felt warm in my heart even the surrounding was damn cold.

After visiting Snowworld,we went to seek for some food and then continue our shopping time.But there was something happened and i was no longer have the mood to shop anymore.Me and my dear went into S & M shopping centre and i was looking some dresses at deparmental store(women deparment).Suddenly one of the salesgirl told her partner that my dear should not touch the dresses.After that she also came n said unpolite and rudely to me that "Here is nth suitable for u."Shit,what the heck is that....They look down on their customers.It seems like we have no money to buy dresses.I am extremely unsatisfactory and angry with their services.As a customer we have our own right to choose whatever dresses we like.I hope the boss can pay attention on the attitude of their workers.No wonder there is nobody willing to come to this shop.

Since i was so unhappy with that event so dear brought me to play games.haha...we threw the basketball happily until forgot our manner.lolzz Besides that,i released all my anger by knocking the dolls which pop up from the holes.hehe..It was so fun but my hands damn tired.haha,i was so cool when riding on that bike.

Finally night time was coming.It is the best time for owl to come out n hunter for "food".lolzzz I played "small n big" at casino.wow...For the 1...2.... round i lost money but for the subsequent round i kept on winning money until that dealer also can't believe n said "whether i am really that good luck in betting or not".hahahaha...but i m not so greedy.I stop playing when i won rm80.lolzz

When we back to hotel there was almost 3 o'clock.Both of us very tired but my dear didnt forget to help me to massage my legs.Dear,be frank it was so sweet at my heart.Thanks bao bei.

Stress

14,13,12,11......exam is getting nearer n nearer ,my heart is beating faster n faster.I have to stop all the activities n concentrate on this important final exam.No more fun,dating,shopping.... n i have to confine myself in the room for 24 hours...huh...crazy dude...I just like a machine producing the goods non-stop,reiterate it over n over again.

But it is too bad bcs i discover that i still can't finish studying n can't even remember what i had read so far.Should i have to do last minute work then only i can remember it?No!!Absolutely no way. I should do it right now.But what to do,my mind can't function at all.

I need some motivation in order to keep my "spirit" to perform well n i got it on monday.hmmm,it is Genting trip after my exam from somebody.haha,it sounds like so stupid right bcs it is just a trip to Genting but it is so meaningful for me.I can't wait for the day to come.

hehe,the method which i can release my stress is by taking some funny n special photo from someone laptop.here are some of my masterpieces n i took it on monday n it was the last day we together with each other.

Simple love

Love is something so special.

Your smile is so naive which analogous to the baby who just born to this joyful world,

I am attracting by you n deciding to hug u tightly n firmly.

There is a dream which is not too far from me and thr is a same circle which is worthy for me to remember everyday,every minute,every second n forever until the last of my breath.

I pray it sincerely under the sky which is full of stars

and u make my dream comes true.

Bcs of u,

love is nvr the same.

It looks like i found a pair of wings in my life,

it departs from my heart n flies to the sun,

flies to the forever way.

Bcs of u,

romantic is totally spreading out to every corner of the world.

It is over the time limit n will never ever change.

Let our love last forever

或许

两个人在一起一定要容忍对方的缺点。但是有些事情我们却无法说出来是因为会引发一场不必要的结果。
或许这是一个最好的地方让我来说出我心中话。
又或许是因为我不知该如何表达出我内心真正想要的是甚么。
你的出现使我不再感到寂寞。我也很肯定我是真的很爱你。或许有时我的野蛮会使你感到不知所措，又或许你会因为这样而后悔当初不该追求我这坏女孩。
或许我在爱情方面真的很失败。我不懂得体谅你。我终是预料太多，但你却无法实现我所预料的，而令我感到失望，所以就在你面前大发脾气，更本不顾你的感受。我知道你对我是真的很好。
每当我无法满足你的要求时，我都觉得很难过，为何自己做不到。
或许每个人都有不同的要求。可能你要的是一个听你话，又不发脾气的女朋友.
或许是你太单纯，无法知道女人要的是甚么?
还是我真的是太在意一却?我也无法解释。一切随缘吧!如果有缘，你将会看到我所写的，如果无缘就让它随风而去，我也继续好好的当你的女朋友。
宝贝，我真的很想和你说对不起，每次都令你伤心，可是我真的无法控制自己。dear, I LOVE U.