I went thr with a happy face.Suddenly the rain came pouring down in buckets.I started running with all the strenght i had. When i reached the destination,what i had heard was that "Oooh,Gosh!!!Dont be so silly,do u think she will do it?She used to be like that."That devil was shrieking away and making a disgusted face.
F**k,my mouth dropped open widely and as i squinted across the corner,i saw the devil,leaning against the wall.Her eyes had become cruel,pearcing and unblinking like a hawk's eyes,while the rest of her face which was relaxed,grinned with pleasure.
At the moment,i gritted my teeth as i listened to that fu**ing devil triumphant laughter.I could feel every muscle in my body tighthening in anger.Balling and unballing my fists,I darted over them and ran away that cruel scene.
"Y?Y does this keep happening to me?Y is life so unfair someimes?Is that my false?"Angry and frustrated,i turned n started to punch my pillow hard with both my fists,again n again.I was feeling utterly helpless,thr were no kind Samaritans around to lend me a helping hand.
I hate myself......y?y?y i should trust him so much?At the end who was getting hurt?IS ME...
He is nearly spoilt my future.......wasting somebody money....Bcs of him i tell lie to somebody...really felt sorry to them....but pls forgive me bcs i have my own reasons.
Punishment should enforce on him.I shouldn't believe him at all.May be i m too kind.When ppl told me that ur such a "bad guy"but i believe that u will change but everything u did really SHIT!!!!!!!!Now i only knew that u have no friend. U bluff me,stupid,idiot,fucking,bastard Y*C i really DISSAPOINTED with u.
God will punish u very soon...........................
Friday, March 18, 2005
Lonely world
Hihi,is me again....
Thanks to be my loyalty audience.
I felt my world going to pieces and more lonely.I was really in low spirits since we are taking difference degree program.Friends,I miss u all so much.
Now i have understood that friend of this nature is the precious gem that roots us to the earth.There is a lovely sense of belonging that we are part of a group:small,intimate and all sharing things together.No one ever sulks or get angry with each other.It is like a happy family of friends.
Friends r easy to find as they can be found everywhere and anytime but true friends are the rare breed which takes a long time to meet.If we have found a friend who fits the qualities of a true friend then we have to ensure the friend is cherished and loved.
Haizzz,nowadays everything was being vivid memory.They are bz for studying,doing assignments and having fun with bf.I really feeling dull with my life.Everyday do the same job such as studying,eating alone,shopping alone,no tv,no movie.I just like a small "bubble"or drifter which floating everywhere without direction.
May be i should change my attitute.Perhaps these can set my thinking of some areas in my life where i could build my own convictions Pray and seek God's guidance to do so.It is too sad to live with that "family".Dont know what's the reason they nvr even call me out to have dinner?Is that bcs i have been declined them b4?If yes then i could just say that sorry for u all bcs at that time exam was just around the corner so i must study hard.May be u will think that i have my own world who is not necessary to have friends.
So how can i learn to know myself and take change of my life?What is important to me in life?When was the last time I really felt excited about doing something?Oh shit,i have rarely felt excited n everything seems to be mundane,then I should have to dig to find myself.
God,WHO AM I?I am trying to find and grapple with my own identity.May be u can tell me!!!!
The key to success as a person is self-knowledge."know thyself,"the ancientgreeks have often said and Shakespeare once wrote,"To thine own self be true."
God has said:"Never will I leave u".
Thanks to be my loyalty audience.
I felt my world going to pieces and more lonely.I was really in low spirits since we are taking difference degree program.Friends,I miss u all so much.
Now i have understood that friend of this nature is the precious gem that roots us to the earth.There is a lovely sense of belonging that we are part of a group:small,intimate and all sharing things together.No one ever sulks or get angry with each other.It is like a happy family of friends.
Friends r easy to find as they can be found everywhere and anytime but true friends are the rare breed which takes a long time to meet.If we have found a friend who fits the qualities of a true friend then we have to ensure the friend is cherished and loved.
Haizzz,nowadays everything was being vivid memory.They are bz for studying,doing assignments and having fun with bf.I really feeling dull with my life.Everyday do the same job such as studying,eating alone,shopping alone,no tv,no movie.I just like a small "bubble"or drifter which floating everywhere without direction.
May be i should change my attitute.Perhaps these can set my thinking of some areas in my life where i could build my own convictions Pray and seek God's guidance to do so.It is too sad to live with that "family".Dont know what's the reason they nvr even call me out to have dinner?Is that bcs i have been declined them b4?If yes then i could just say that sorry for u all bcs at that time exam was just around the corner so i must study hard.May be u will think that i have my own world who is not necessary to have friends.
So how can i learn to know myself and take change of my life?What is important to me in life?When was the last time I really felt excited about doing something?Oh shit,i have rarely felt excited n everything seems to be mundane,then I should have to dig to find myself.
God,WHO AM I?I am trying to find and grapple with my own identity.May be u can tell me!!!!
The key to success as a person is self-knowledge."know thyself,"the ancientgreeks have often said and Shakespeare once wrote,"To thine own self be true."
God has said:"Never will I leave u".
Sunday, March 13, 2005
Country life
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Yoyoyo!!!
9 March 2005,I felt not so well and couldn't concentrate on study so i went to libary.Before went out,my six-sense told me that it would have something happen on me.hey,what the hell was going on?
Of course,undesirable thing was coming.hee~~guys did u know what was happening?Around 1pm,the road would have been packed with cars and motorcycles would be seen wearing in and out of the traffic.Suckksss,I had met an accident.My car "kissed"the backside of the other car.haha...At that moment,i prayed for the god that the owner won't ask for so much compensation bcs i am just a poor little girl.
Luckily,the couple very kind and they didn't ask so much money to repair the bumper.They just accepted RM100.Besides,my car was nth going wrong or damage.Really thanks for god.
Haih really prefer country life.Country life is a leisurely life and free from hustle and bustle of town.Life in town really sucksss,hectic.Even to cross the road we must be in a rush.Traffic congestion always occur in towns.The vehicles move at a snail's pace,bumper to bumper.Over-crowding always occurs in town.
Beside that,most of the ppl who live in town are caught in the rat race.Really hateful!!!Damn!!!The town has a dog-eat-dog society whr ppl try to secure advantages over others.They only paddle their own canoes.Generally there is lack of humility in town!!!!!!
Yoyoyo!!!
9 March 2005,I felt not so well and couldn't concentrate on study so i went to libary.Before went out,my six-sense told me that it would have something happen on me.hey,what the hell was going on?
Of course,undesirable thing was coming.hee~~guys did u know what was happening?Around 1pm,the road would have been packed with cars and motorcycles would be seen wearing in and out of the traffic.Suckksss,I had met an accident.My car "kissed"the backside of the other car.haha...At that moment,i prayed for the god that the owner won't ask for so much compensation bcs i am just a poor little girl.
Luckily,the couple very kind and they didn't ask so much money to repair the bumper.They just accepted RM100.Besides,my car was nth going wrong or damage.Really thanks for god.
Haih really prefer country life.Country life is a leisurely life and free from hustle and bustle of town.Life in town really sucksss,hectic.Even to cross the road we must be in a rush.Traffic congestion always occur in towns.The vehicles move at a snail's pace,bumper to bumper.Over-crowding always occurs in town.
Beside that,most of the ppl who live in town are caught in the rat race.Really hateful!!!Damn!!!The town has a dog-eat-dog society whr ppl try to secure advantages over others.They only paddle their own canoes.Generally there is lack of humility in town!!!!!!
Cheer up baby
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I really tired with love game.Wake up girl!!!!Stop thinking and missing J..he will never occupy in your heart anymore.
Be frank i don't like to force anybody to be my frined.If u felt that I am a disgusting gal,then please "kick"me out of ur circle orelse you will get into trouble.Y?That simple bcs I m a troublesome girl.
Somebody might think that "aisskkk y this crazy girl looks like so happy after separating with her bf??"Is it she is only having fun or playing fool to J?F**k...u all totally wrong,absolutely wrong!!!May be even him also will suspect that have i loved him before?yes yes yes i love him so much.....
Bcs of him i cried sadly almost everynight,just u guys might not even know that.Damn what the hell that i should show out my crestfallen face in front of u???Sorry i won't do that.So what,without guys in this wonderful world i still can alive gleefully bcs i have a lot of friends.hoorrah!!!Hey guys pls don't think that i am a snobby or ruthless kid.haha
Hmmm,that right "weeping may go on all night,but in the morning thr is joy"(psalm30:5 tlb).Y don't we forget all nasty events and be a cheerful fellow?
That day when u sms me and said that if i need any help pls call u.At that moments,i really wanna sms u that i need ur love.haha,just want to see ur reaction.But at the end i didn't do so bcs our love had faded.
Yeah u might think that this mischievous,rebellious,immature and dummy evil should not be loved by anybody and just can be a very good friend.yoo,may be ur right bcs my thinking is young,fresh and just like other modern teenager can share things that we enjoy doing.
I have loved you with an everlasting love.I have drawn you with loving-kindness(jeremiah31:3niv)
Y?Y u want to hurt me?I knew that u want me to study smart and this is for my own good in future.But have u been thinking that this will only make me more upset.Thus influenced my academic.Such a silly and selfish reason.Actually we should not start from the beginning since u have to concentrate on ur study and thougght that i am just a heavy burden for u.
Babyling STOP thinking J!!!!!!!!!!!!everything was already over!!!Blekkk!!!
Cheer up Babyling!!!
I really tired with love game.Wake up girl!!!!Stop thinking and missing J..he will never occupy in your heart anymore.
Be frank i don't like to force anybody to be my frined.If u felt that I am a disgusting gal,then please "kick"me out of ur circle orelse you will get into trouble.Y?That simple bcs I m a troublesome girl.
Somebody might think that "aisskkk y this crazy girl looks like so happy after separating with her bf??"Is it she is only having fun or playing fool to J?F**k...u all totally wrong,absolutely wrong!!!May be even him also will suspect that have i loved him before?yes yes yes i love him so much.....
Bcs of him i cried sadly almost everynight,just u guys might not even know that.Damn what the hell that i should show out my crestfallen face in front of u???Sorry i won't do that.So what,without guys in this wonderful world i still can alive gleefully bcs i have a lot of friends.hoorrah!!!Hey guys pls don't think that i am a snobby or ruthless kid.haha
Hmmm,that right "weeping may go on all night,but in the morning thr is joy"(psalm30:5 tlb).Y don't we forget all nasty events and be a cheerful fellow?
That day when u sms me and said that if i need any help pls call u.At that moments,i really wanna sms u that i need ur love.haha,just want to see ur reaction.But at the end i didn't do so bcs our love had faded.
Yeah u might think that this mischievous,rebellious,immature and dummy evil should not be loved by anybody and just can be a very good friend.yoo,may be ur right bcs my thinking is young,fresh and just like other modern teenager can share things that we enjoy doing.
I have loved you with an everlasting love.I have drawn you with loving-kindness(jeremiah31:3niv)
Y?Y u want to hurt me?I knew that u want me to study smart and this is for my own good in future.But have u been thinking that this will only make me more upset.Thus influenced my academic.Such a silly and selfish reason.Actually we should not start from the beginning since u have to concentrate on ur study and thougght that i am just a heavy burden for u.
Babyling STOP thinking J!!!!!!!!!!!!everything was already over!!!Blekkk!!!
Cheer up Babyling!!!
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