Lonely world

Hihi,is me again....
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I felt my world going to pieces and more lonely.I was really in low spirits since we are taking difference degree program.Friends,I miss u all so much.
Now i have understood that friend of this nature is the precious gem that roots us to the earth.There is a lovely sense of belonging that we are part of a group:small,intimate and all sharing things together.No one ever sulks or get angry with each other.It is like a happy family of friends.
Friends r easy to find as they can be found everywhere and anytime but true friends are the rare breed which takes a long time to meet.If we have found a friend who fits the qualities of a true friend then we have to ensure the friend is cherished and loved.
Haizzz,nowadays everything was being vivid memory.They are bz for studying,doing assignments and having fun with bf.I really feeling dull with my life.Everyday do the same job such as studying,eating alone,shopping alone,no tv,no movie.I just like a small "bubble"or drifter which floating everywhere without direction.
May be i should change my attitute.Perhaps these can set my thinking of some areas in my life where i could build my own convictions Pray and seek God's guidance to do so.It is too sad to live with that "family".Dont know what's the reason they nvr even call me out to have dinner?Is that bcs i have been declined them b4?If yes then i could just say that sorry for u all bcs at that time exam was just around the corner so i must study hard.May be u will think that i have my own world who is not necessary to have friends.
So how can i learn to know myself and take change of my life?What is important to me in life?When was the last time I really felt excited about doing something?Oh shit,i have rarely felt excited n everything seems to be mundane,then I should have to dig to find myself.
God,WHO AM I?I am trying to find and grapple with my own identity.May be u can tell me!!!!
The key to success as a person is self-knowledge."know thyself,"the ancientgreeks have often said and Shakespeare once wrote,"To thine own self be true."
God has said:"Never will I leave u".